Anxiety

In ultrasound yesterday we found out that the baby is breech and that my UAR (uterine artery rate) was high by a bit but after waiting to speak to the Dr the radiologist called and said it should be fine and that we would check it again next week.  However the breech part still concerned me and of course about an hour after the appt our Dr. called to say that she just found out the baby was breech and that she took the liberty of scheduling an external cephalic version on Tuesday at 10:30.  She explained that I would be given some muscle relaxants and that it can be painful but could work if I want to avoid a c-section and I/we really want to avoid a c-section.  She did say that because I already had a high UAR that the version could cause more stress on the baby and cause that number to go higher and in that case the baby would be born c-section emergently and immediately.  Of course this all went down on an evening when D was sitting an appt in Eagan so I took to the bathroom and cried and cried.  I had not expected a breech presentation.  I had expected the same (I would take near same) delivery as when Riley entered the world.  It was nothing short of perfection.  I am/was gladly looking forward to my water breaking, contractions starting, walking the long hallways with my hubby, the epidural numbing, pushing and sweating until finally a slippery little one was placed on my chest as D and I cried in awe.  We rocked labor and delivery and had no doubt that we would again but I guess our path is a little different this time so we will check into L & D at 10:30 today and pray to God that this external version works with little to no pain/bruising and that she stays head down.  If it works we will have another U/S next Monday to check the uterine artery rate and to make sure she is still head down.  If it doesn't work we will be scheduling a c-section with the Dr who does the version.  I am nervous, D is a wreck of nerves, we didn't sleep well last night, I cried with Riley who wiped my tears away and handed me his lovie to help comfort me, I cried with D, we discussed our options, we googled everything, we finally gave up and had ice cream and french fries while we watched crap TV.  We are going to just ask lots of questions before the procedure and hopefully go home with happy, relieved smiles to enjoy a huge late lunch since I can't eat anything for 8-10 hours before the procedure!  OUCH!   If it doesn't work out then we will come to terms with a c-section and pray for a lower UAR level next week.  In the end the only thing that matters is that our girl is healthy...so here we go baby girl you certainly are quite dramatic already!  It's funny that only about 3% of all babies end up backwards and ours is quite possibly going to be one of that small number.  Makes us second guess not naming her differently then previously thought because of the meaning 'ill omen' or 'unlucky'.  She just might be trying to tell us something here!