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Tuesday, December 14, 2010

Panic sets in...

Whether it's my extreme tiredness causing early bedtimes (like 7:50 and 8:05 the last 2 nights) or the fact that I just turned in my admission paperwork and short term disability packets I just don't know but I am freaking out about a new baby in just 54 days.  The stress of "it's a girl" has totally grabbed me.  I feel like everything I look that is made for girls I don't like.  The blankets are too girly, the clothes have too many kittens on them and the accessories are endless!

I keep a running list literally circling my brain at all times and today at work I answered numerous phone calls with "How can I help her?"  Yes, HER, she is on my brain and my bladder as a matter of factly all day and all night long.  Sunday I couldn't sleep because I kept thinking hamper, garbage can, blankets, nuks, bundle me, new light fixture, rocker, and it goes on and on.  

Silly, I know but I/we feel totally off our game.  I mean with Riley we were prepared, we had lists checked off, bottles washed and ready, nuks sanitized and waiting, a blue baby book filled in with preparation details and with this one we are wondering around watching the weeks turn over and the months slip by practically oblivious that we are not really ready as far as supplies go.  Probably, maybe this is just a 2nd baby thing.  More relaxed, much more busy, less time to tediously prepare or maybe we just realize that this time around 23 receiving blankets, more outfits than a newborn baby can even wear before the outgrowing starts and 25 nuks are completely over-doing it?  

So the plan is to actually write down what we need to get done so that with the Holidays we can keep everything straight! 
Because I am a list person.
It's in my blood. 
I keep lists for chores I need to get done, dinners for the week, target shopping and more.  So I am thinking a list is a great starter plus I feel downright bad/guilty for not already having a baby book for her filled in with a few choice details.  I know it's here on the blog but I would personally feel better about having it in hand-in actual handwriting, written in black ink (never blue-you see I am a little OCD) and I think that would go a long way for my level of sanity that is preferred.

But for now I am just looking forward to wrapping my last present tonight and being done with Holiday shopping!  Woo Hoo!  Now just need to pick up a pink baby book and fill in a few stats. 

P.S.  We unpacked and filled up the changing table with newborn and size 1 diapers the last few days and the smell of a fresh, tiny, Pampers diaper goes a far way in bringing back one's sanity.  D E L I C I O U S!  Love that smell and can't believe I forgot how refresing and yummy it is!  Almost, almost as good as a new baby scent! 

P.S.S.  Did you see that little, creepy elf about butt level in the 32 week picture.  He brought tears me eyes I was laughing so hard when I finally noticed him precariously sitting there.  That also brought me back to reality and how silly stressing about the little things are when you can just be enjoying them! 

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